i have nothing to say

when wisdom abandones you
when logic shies away
when words are lost
only you remain
to salvage what is left
from a distant place
that is best forgotten
to replace the strange silence
with music you can understand

pictures of treasure
are not glitters of gold
they are worth a mountain
and cannot be sold
when everything is quiet
peacefulness looks divine
silence is the best kept secret
then creating a deafening sound
so therefore i end this
i have nothing to say

menanti di barzakh

Menanti di barzakh

Ku Merintih,
Aku Menangis,
Ku Meratap,
Aku Mengharap,
Ku Meminta Dihidupkan Semula,
Agar Dapat Kembali Ke Dunia Nyata,
Perjalanan Rohku,
Melengkapi Sebuah Kembara,
Singgah Di Rahim Bonda,
Sebelum Menjejak Ke Dunia,
Menanti Di Barzakh,
Sebelum Berangkat Ke Mahsyar,
Diperhitung Amalan,
Penentu Syurga Atau Sebaliknya,
Tanah Yang Basah Berwarna Merah,
Semerah Mawar Dan Jugak Rindu,
7 Langkah Pun Baru Berlalu,
Susai Talkin Penanda Syahdu,
Tenang Dan Damai Di Pusaraku,
Nisan Batu Menjadi Tugu,
Namun Tak Siapa Pun Tahu Resah Penantianku,
Terbangkitnya Aku Dari Sebuah Kematian,
Seakan Ku Dengari,
Tangis Mereka Yang Ku Tinggalkan,
Kehidupan Disini Bukan Suatu Khayalan
Tetapi Ia Sebenar Kejadian
Kembali Oh Kembali,
Kembalilah Kedalam Diri,
Sendirian Sendiri,
Sendiri Bertemankan Sepi,
Hanya Kain Putih Yang Membaluti Tubuhku,
Terbujur Dan Kaku,
Jasad Terbujur Didalam Keranda Kayu,
Ajal Yang Datang Dibuka Pintu ,
Tiada Siapa Yang Memberi Tahu,
Tiada Siapa Pun Dapat Hindari,
Tiada Siapa Yang Terkecuali,
Lemah Jemari Nafas Terhenti,
Tidak Tergambar Sakitnya Mati,
Cukup sekali Jasadku Untuk Mengulangi,
Jantung Berdenyut Kencang,
Menantikan Malaikat Datang,
Mengigil Ketakutan Gelap Pekat Dipandangan,
Selama Ini Diceritakan
Kini Aku Merasakan
Dialam Barzakh
Jasad Dikebumikan
Ku Merintih,
Aku Menangis,
Ku Meratap,
Aku Mengharap,
Ku Meminta Dihidupkan Semula,
Agar Dapat Kembali Ke Dunia Nyata.

Artis : Far East

selamat menyambut Ramadhan Al Mubarak

semoga kita semua beroleh keberkatan disepanjang bulan yang mulia ini.

terawih, sahur, puasa , berbuka ... pastu lepas sebulan .. raya!

what happened between hello and goodbye..

what happened between hello and goodbye

i am confused.

is this the end?

what happened between hello and goodbye..

was there a fight?

it wasnt that big a fight.

was it the loss of interest?

it wasnt that interesting in the first place,
but we soldier on with civility.

that is the key.

i am not asking for money nor mercy,

i understand privacy.

but harsh words were not necessary.

was rudeness a substitute for power?

being human we tend to be,

but forgiveness makes us humble.

the wheel of lives is neither constant nor static

so it is best to reserve empathy for others,

when all that we have

is just the time lent to live on this earth.

live happily,

i don't have envy

what i feel is a little sadness

that goodbye was so dirty.

*copyright reserved :-)

something which i created when the poetic mood came over me .. haha . make nothing out of this ..

just ramblings of a troubled mind that finds a place on the page of a blog.

that is the way ..

express yourself before u were misunderstood.

brussels

mannekin pis!
yes that is the infamous pissing little boy.. i told my mom that he was a pissing legend . Ahakzz. she couldnt believe her ears.

i took that right after we arrived in town via train from brussels international airport. the trip to town cost EU7.90 per person. makkk oiiii! mahal nye .. hehe .. mula-mula rajin la nak convert .. that comes to RM40 just for a 20 min train ride!

ok lah, it was worth it la.. brussels is a nice city, very well kept and ancient .. just like in the elizabethan time.

we spent more than 6 hours ther , ronda-ronda about town waiting for my sister and her family to arrive from paris to come and pick us up and take us home to gent!

confusing?? hehehe .. well, ALhamdulillah all's well that ends well.

now it's been 5 days here in gent and i feel im gaining weight already .. ahakzz.

this weather makes me eat a lot . hehe.

ok, next post.. gent!

belgium

yes, finally im going.

Alhamdulillah departing tonite at 9.30pm malaysian time with etihad air.

mom n me had packed minimally, well.. at least that is what i'd like to think .. ahakzz.

of coz coming back from the trip, our minimal baggage will transform drastically .. hehe..

ok, cannot write more.. time doesnt permit.

hv to make tea for my darling nephew .. tea here means .. onion eggs with rice ..

ahakzz.. to him im an overindulgent auntie..

will go n c 4 more of my little angels in brussels insyaAllah.

wish me n mom safe journey ok.

laterz.

overcast

yes, the sky is moody.
but it's good :-) overcast is by no means .. over!

rain is rahmat. i love rain.
pouring rain has a rhythmn that is soothing to mind and soul.

when one is able to think like this, one has to humble oneself to the Almighty ..
Allah sangat sayang pada kita.

we don't have to think about what to eat tonight, or where to get shade when it pours, or how to survive until the next day.

Alhamdulillah, rahmat Allah is in abundance.
im thankful.. and im humbled.

and i keep on wishing for rain..

time check: 4.05 pm
still at work .. report almost done for today.. yessssssssssssssssssssssssssss!
it's been a good day too.
hehe . smile now.

durian delight

Yeahhh! just had my fill of durians. kenyanggg.. Alhamdulillah! hehe.

i experienced what u wud call the snowball effect .. ahakzz.

first the enticing smell, then the invitation to crack up a few pods.. and walla .. i selesaikan 10 bijik altogedaaaaa!! ahakz.

Alhamdulillah. well, as muchas i like to gobble them all up, i was full to the brim with dinner i ate moments before.. so tapau laa.. ahakzz.. for future gastronomic pleasure. thanx mom!

as the nite falls

officially , it's a new day.
already 20 past midnite. it is wednesday.
iv to go sleep now.
but i wish i hv more things to say.

nite is peaceful,
nite is warm,
my day was beautiful,
i managed to stay calm. *hehe*

so much to do .. so lazy one .. ahakzz.
always changing .. colour scheme, font, testing videos and putting in pictures .. endlesss....

until i hv my time to spare ... i bid myself, me and i..
GOOD NITE

it's been a pleasure to be able to breathe another day, live another day, Alhamdulillah.
next stop.. my bed!

Smile!

yes im here again :-)

reading my first posting makes me think that i sounded morbid.. *ahakz*
wayyyyyy different than what i really am.. hey hooo nooo...

so allow me to rectify meself ..

since i dun think any of these will be of any interest to anyone but myself .. i intend to make this my personal ramblings .. *hehe*

been awhile since i signed up to this blog. i lost myspace, the one iv been tinkering with .. duno wat happen to it. lost the password too .. just as well.. dah takdir .. ahakzz.

so i left this one empty and wanting .. *pun intended* hehe.. for almost a year . .really???
perhaps, its not important.

until today, tht is... yess!!! 7th july .. this is history!

and waddaya know... it rainsssssssssss!!

perfect! like poets and day dreamers who got their ideas when it rains .. out came mine..
tht and also the fact tht im staring at the same page of my report for an hour now..

may as well make my brain useful.. ahakzz.

ok, note to myself..
*hide*

there.. i g2g now. SMILE!!!!

as i begin to write..

it is now raining heavily. so nice i thought. wish i were in bed..

so many things go inside my head, making me think over mundane thoughts and doing less work. this is not good. yes i know.
but thinking keeps us on our feet.

thinking i say .. not day dreaming.
am i justifying myself to u.. no need.

like i said before.. it was raining as i wrote this .. and as i finish , it is still raining. *hehe*

do i have a point.. i might..
but let me think.
words are better said when they are penned to perfection.
but why put so much stress on the pain of being understood...
just let your mind flow and let the words out.
as long as you know who you are and what you are and where you are..
there is no mistaking... all that goes around . .comes around.

Qada and Qadar, life and death, dosa dan pahala, sakit dan disakiti, happiness and tragedy,
smile and tears... these are the ying and yang of lives.

Wallahualambissawab.

lebih baik baca Al Quran :-)